I really dislike the term "rockstar," especially when it's used in a business context - as in "be a marketing rockstar" or "be a human resources rockstar." I know where my dislike of the term comes from - I was an aspiring singer-songwriter from a fairly young age, and I routinely heard the derisive question "what do you want to be - some kinda rockstar?" In hindsight, I should've looked everyone in the eye and said "yes," but that was never my actual goal. Sure, popularity as a musician would have been nice, but "rockstar" seemed like a lifestyle ambition, not a career path - and more importantly, most actual rock stars seemed like selfish assholes. Would you want to be in a relationship with an old-school "rock star?"
I read a blog today where the writer explained what this business application of the "rockstar" term means to him:
I used the term “Rockstar” to describe someone living their life with high intensity, in their unique way, as the old rockstars once did. I’m sad to say that I don’t see this, these days. People are just surviving, instead of living.
I understand this explanation - the idea is that living one's life uniquely and with high intensity is an admirable pursuit. It is. My challenge is that everyone I used to know that lived and worked as a "rockstar" is now either dead, or living poorly. True rock stars rarely had the chance to get old. Living with unique high intensity can burn out quickly, and it burns many bridges along the way. A few lucky ones made it through "successfully," and we all know their names - but most aren't as talented or fortunate. As the rock star days fade, those who lived the life tend to feel that their best days are passed. Furthermore, they live with regrets about relationships taken for granted, and people they treated poorly in the selfish pursuit of 'living their unique life with high intensity.' It's tough to be sensitive, compassionate and democratic when you're blazing your own path - and if that path turns out to be a dead end, there can be a lot of scorched earth left behind you.
Life can be lived uniquely and with high intensity, but we need a better aspiration than "rockstar." Most rock stars burn out or fade away, and there is a better option.
Living life uniquely and with high intensity is great - but being a dick about it is not sustainable. The odds of failure in any adventure is great, so consider if there will be anybody willing or able to catch you if you fall. If not, ask if the lived intensity would be worth it - especially if it cut life shorter? If you're a sociopath who truly doesn't care about anyone else, then knock yourself out rockstar - but if not, living with much less selfishness is a good investment. This is not survival - it is living with intention and purpose.
A high intensity life doesn't have to be all about you. Personal growth can be found in building up those around you. It can absolutely be found in the thrills and deep fears of parenting. I have discovered that teaching provides intensity, purpose and fulfillment, and it even provides the ever-elusive feeling of "making a difference." Embrace growth, thrills, fears, purpose and contribution - these are the things that define "living," and you don't have to strive for some lofty "high intensity" goal to live them.